Ana always tells me the truth and I truly mean always. You know how friends may sometimes tell you those little white lies to keep you from getting hurt? Ana won't do that. Ever. That's why I trust her more than anyone else.
Sometimes, some days, I might fell weak, tired or depressed, I might say: No Ana! I don't want to. Not today.. I don't want to be sick, I don't want to starve, I don't want to isolate myself from the world just to be with you, and  most of all, I don't want to be thin!!! But I know.. and Ana knows, That that's a lie, That that's all I want. All my happiness and all my misery lies in those 42 kilos, in that size zero and that BMI of 16. And she will tell me, and I will belive her.

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